Saturday, May 30, 2015
So I have decided to start blogging again. I will share how I am dealing with my fibromyalgia and chronic fatigue along with my feelings about moving forward without my soul mate.
Blogging is a way of dealing with feelings, it forces us to view, accept, and learn what our true intentions are. Running away from uncomfortable issues, shutting down our feelings, or numbing our sorrow catches up with us sooner or later. Avoidance only makes matters worse and we cannot outrun our heartbreak, pain, or fatigue. So, it is my intent to continue to learn and to take personal responsibility for my own life, love, and happiness. We all choose different ways of expressing or dealing with life, this is my way.
Today I woke up feeling sluggish and lethargic. My sweet loyal dog; Palamino (Pal) kept waking me up, leading me to the kitchen, and wanting food. I take ambien and sometimes wake up hungry. Unfortunately, my dog has gotten used to this habit. We have both enjoyed my nightly snacks and my son has caught us in bed eating out of the same sherbet container! I had no idea we were enjoying the sherbet and always wondered why the container was missing or half full. That Palamino cannot be trusted! Going to place a lock on the freezer door, right after I teach Pal how to open a lock.
Lets jump into improving our physical strength. I know it is hard when you are in pain and feel fatigued. Find a way to force yourself to move. When the weather is bad and I am experiencing a flare-up, I have to force myself to stretch and move. It is hard and exhausting in the beginning, please do not give up, it gets easier and you do start to feel stronger. I am not going to lie to you, it isn't easy and we will not magically feel better. Motivate yourself, challenge yourself and believe in yourself. I do remember not even being able to lift my head up, requiring assistance walking from the bed to the bathroom. You are not alone and things do improve. Just read my old blog posts, you will see the progression. Please start by setting goals and consider journaling. I started to add to my daily stretching exercise program. I found a video on youtube, it is a 15 minute beginner workout for weight loss and strength. I started on May 26, 2015, am doing it daily and have already lost the extra weight. Maybe it was just water weight. The plan is to continue the routine every other day. No point in setting unattainable goals. I do not diet because diets are short term answers. I am already limited on what I can eat without feeling sick or suffering from IBS. Increasing activity, drinking lots of water, and reducing portions works for me. I have heard of people exercising on Ambien, so maybe I can subconsciously train my brain to exercise. Ambien also helps you gain perspective and reach happy epiphanies about your life….too bad I can’t remember anything!
Let us get serious…...
Use my energy facing my sadness and treating myself with love, not attempting an impossible escape.
Remind myself that resistance is useless. I will try to surrender to what's happening and accept that sorrow is a part of living. While I have been able to manage my sorrow around family and friends, I have not truly managed it within my heart and soul. Back to step one! I hope you like to sing and dance because it is a major part of my life. Singing and dancing encourages and intensifies our emotions. Plus it is another form of exercise. Try it.
I leave you with my thoughts for the day: Pretending that you're okay when you’re not only makes the discomfort return stronger than before. Be patient and listen to your heart. Together we can learn to accept and experience life with a greater awareness, love, and gratitude for all our lessons learned.
I hope and pray that you have a pain and fatigue free day. Fibro Viv
P.S. I appreciate your time and would love to hear from you. I would also love to mentor anyone that needs help. Don't be afraid to ask for help.